Trust

It comes down to it now
All I say I believe
Do I believe it?
I feel I'm standing at the edge
While the winds of imminent change
Blow all against me
Obscuring my view
Striving to topple me
From the Rock I say I cling to
Will I?
Or will I let the winds carry me
To places I never wanted to go?

I must choose this day
Who to trust
My God
Or my fear

My God

My God is many things
He is the Lion of Judah
He roars and the earth trembles in fear
Yet He is the Lamb
Tender, sweet and made for the sacrifice

My God is powerful
Like the fierce thunderstorm
And the raging sea
Yet He is gentle
Like the sweet, cool breeze
And the laughing, bubbling brook

My God is incomprehensibly big
The universe is His footstool
The sun but a grain of sand in His hand
Yet He is in the smallest of things
Clothing the flowers of the fields
And listening to the quietest of whispered prayers

My God is holy
No evil thing may stand in His presence and live
Yet He is merciful
Taking my sins and placing them on His own Son
Allowing me to come before Him
Pure and spotless

My God is the all-sufficient One
The Healer of heart, mind, body and soul
He is the guiding light amidst the darkness
The sweet song of love that swells in our hearts
He is faithful and patient
Never leaving us as we stumble through each day
He is all-knowing and forgiving
Seeing our deepest thoughts yet loving us the same
He is the beginning of all things
And the end of time
He is eternity
He is Love
He is my Savior
The Lover of my heart and soul
My friend and constant companion

This is my God

Forgiveness

I have done my share of sin
Ones that we can all attest to
And others I hold close
Hoping the wounds I inflicted upon Christ
Will remain secret
Only known to me
And Him
How I forget
That since I asked Him to take it from me
The Father sees it no longer

So often the deceiver drudges it up
Tauntingly, he dangles it in front of me
"Remember what you did?
Remember what a DEPLORABLE person you really are?
You, who pretend to be holy
I know what you really are."

And the shame
and remorse
returns
I shut my eyes
Trying to will the images
and thoughts
away

Then I remember the truth:
It is gone.
The dirty rags I dressed myself with
Have been made clean
There is no spot on them
My Savior has removed them with His own blood
I stand
FORGIVEN

So I fling back this anthem:
"That is what I WAS!
The Lord has made me new!
I know that I will fail Him
Daily
But, each day He gives
Is not another chance for me to disappoint Him
But to become more like Him!"

Overwhelmed

I cried today
Listening to a piece of music
To a song I'd even heard before
It has always been beautiful
But today
It overwhelmed me
Sitting at my desk
Amidst my daily work
It grabbed me
Sending shivers down my spine
Goose bumps all over my skin
All I could do was stop
Close my eyes
And listen:

The strings catapulted my heart
And I envisioned
Blue rain
And running
Flying
Over green, rolling hills
The crescendo
Pulling me higher and higher
Beckoning me
To a world I long for
That I have yet to see
My heart clinches as the drums roll
And tears, deep from the well of my soul
Pool in my eyes
My breath catches
As the song ends
And I heave a sigh
Of longing
Joyful that God let me experience Him this way today

*This is the song I was listening to:
http://grooveshark.com/s/Evey+Reborn/2vQg6H?src=5